It's always me.
I always have to work to keep the friendships. I always have to be the one to apologize. I always have to keep it together. I always have to be mature.
Why can't someone else have the tough job? Why can't someone else adjust so I'm more comfortable, or deal with the fact I am loud and spontaneous and overwhelming? I back off, but I am still excited and full of energy.
Listen. Just listen. I pull away when I see people freak, I try my best to tone it down. I'm sensitive to the point of paranoia; let it never be said I miss when someone's upset.
I keep people focused on the work. I always work hard. I let people copy and use my ideas. I do everything I can to help others and be a friend and support people.
Can someone else fix things for once?