soldiers in war

count the soldiers of this army, m'dear,
we're shaking hands and broken hearts,
practically giving up before the battle begins.
you can count the death tolls if you wanna take years,
more die than ever live.

wipe your tears away, m'dear,
that's okay there's no shame,
you don't need a dry face.
you can count the scars, the battle wounds,
but they're everywhere.

this is a war we're fighting, m'dear,
and so many people do not understand.
there is isolation in a crowd,
loneliness because no-one knows what this is about;
our war is fought in shadows and lies.

don't worry, we're all fine, m'dear,
you don't have to take care,
nobody's walked on eggshells for us before.
people don't understand what it's like
to be unable to change our own fates,
the judgement burns like flames.

don't blame someone for choosing the ice, m'dear,
there's nothing wrong with given up this fight;
most of us are damned from the start,
it's a miracle and a half to survive.
not everyone gives up.

count the soldiers of this army, m'dear,
we're shaking hands and broken hearts,
attempts at suicide.
you can see us by the dull look in our eyes,
you cannot save a doomed life.

wipe your tears away, m'dear,
don't cry for us, we cry enough,
we'll fill the world with a river too high to swim.
maybe one day the world will see
we're people too, fighting a terrible disease.