I Will Love

give me the most difficult child you can think of.

bipolar, autistic, schizophrenic, epileptic, depressed.

all of that, together, not in the individuals.  because an individual concept is relatively simple.  you can reach out to others more easily when you have just one label.

I will love them.

I will love with silences and with words and with touch and with moments when I cannot reach out through my own incapabilities.

I will never think of killing them.

I will never think that it would be better for them to be dead than to be alive.

I will think of killing myself.  The facts of mental diseases.

But I will love; so I will keep going for them.

I will love them, when they are having a meltdown and I'm terrified of them.

I will love them, when they don't want to be touched.

I will love.

Because if you think of killing an innocent child,

Or a troublesome teenager,

There is something wrong with you.

There is something wrong with you

Not with them.

Not with temper-tantrum violent-or-more-likely-not-violent-at-all child.

With YOU.

Because love means you will sacrifice everything for them.

Whatever children God gives me:

I wil love them.

It's what real parents do.