Sims 4 Playthrough: Snowy Escape Part 1

 

This part of my Sims journey starts off great. Dusty ages up to an elder. I do not want Dusty to die. I do not like this.

Samanta leaves the house on good terms with Cassidy, which is nice. First, I go into world edit and build a vacation place to my exacting tastes in Mount Komorebi. What? I am a person with STANDARDS!

Once the lot is set up - I just edited a pre-existing one to have a pet bed and other pet stuff - I take Dusty and start a vacation to this world.

Once I'm in Mt Komorebi, I also go ahead and plan some new outfits. I need some really sturdy winter stuff, since I'll be vacationing in the winter mountain world WHILE IT'S WINTER!

Much warmer

My goals seem to be fairly simple. I want to eat food at one of Mt. Komorebi's festivals, take a photo with the mascot, pop open a Simmi capsule (???), and swim in the Wakaba river.

Well, let's go freeze our butts off for at least an hour by swimming! C'mon, Dusty, time for FUN! (actually, probably just cold). Unfortunately, I do not have enough satisfaction points to buy the Iceproof trait. That's officially next on my list.

...I actually forget to select Dusty to travel with me. -facepalm- Well, I suppose it's fine, he gets to be nice and cozy.

I go ahead and dive into the river. One 'swim around' covers it. There's a board nearby which tells me the next festival is the Festival of Light on Friday.

I change into some warmer clothes after my swim and go hunt down the mascot.

I find the statue, but unfortunately, I need Yamachan themself to complete the wish. Alas. At least my Simstagram followers will be happy...?

Looks like I'm waiting until Friday - it'll get me everything I need. I head home back to Dusty to spend time with my aging pup and do a couple of gigs for my freelancing career. I go ahead and give Dusty a bath after some attention to make sure he's nice and clean and handsome, for anyone else who may be renting the other rooms here.

I also get a playful moodlet from wearing shoes in the house. Woops! So after I bathe Dusty I go ahead and take them off before I get started on those gigs.

Dusty snoozes while I work

I am filled with sass.

This scene is really familiar. My mom is a writer. We have two dogs (and two cats), and they like to lay at her feet when she is writing or editing on her computer.

I drink a flirty celebuserum too, just to get rid of it, and then do things to boost my fun need.

Dusty needs to pee, so I take him on a nice, long, rambling walk.

Except this is the Sims so we never actually go on a walk, because why in the world would the SIMS be functional? Hahaha, silly.

My sim refuses to move when the dog is leashed, Dusty keeps going to sleep despite needing to pee, but I see Yamachan so I'm just going to... take a selfie with the mascot and bang my head on the wall because Sims is broken and requires at least eight mods to be even functional. Truly, fuck EA, the money-grabbing assholes.

Who is the bigger star - Cassidy or Yamachan?

After closing the game to install a couple of bug-fixing mods, we get back and I finally am able to take Dusty on a walk. He produces a big old smelly poo and also pees.

The environment is gorgeous and Dusty and Cassie both have a lot of fun. It's the early early EARLY morning on Thursday, so I decide now is as good a time as any to do some more writing. This time, however, I write my own novel. I also write a song on my guitar. Gonna license them for some sweet, sweet cash over the next week or so.

A TV season premiere occurs while I'm in the middle of writing stuff, so I take a break to participate in that.

...Except I didn't buy a TV. So I enable cheats to let me plop one in the place. Woopsadaisies.

Tiny TV is tiny.

Once I'm done watching the premiere, I'm confident from writing my song lyrics so I go ahead and write a motivational book. I also notice the distinct lack of a mailbox on the lot, at least any mailbox that I can see. Hm. Rental lot quirk?

Something wholesome for you.

Still on a confidence high and in the midst of Thursday afternoon, I take on one more gig before the festival of lights.

Once I do the gig, I get a whim to watch some TV, so watch some TV it is.

I get a whim to build a snowpal, too, so I go ahead and do that.

That Snowpal is... more than a little creepy.

And then a fire breaks out from the unattended space heater I've left on!

I don't end up getting a picture because there were routing issues I had to contend with, but the two firefighters that arrive do nothing while Cassidy puts out the fire before it gets too severe. I then turn off the space heater and decide that I'm just going to wear the cold-weather outfits inside, okay, that was dangerous and they impact the eco-footprint.

I do, however, get a picture of the firefighters dancing in my hallway for some strange reason.

TV Premiere Holiday goes without a hitch, and then I take Dusty for a long walk around Mount Komorebi.

So pretty...

Oh no...

Unfortunately, a long walk turns out to be too long for Dusty, because he ends up getting sick! I should have paid more attention to the temperature. Luckily, I can rush him over to the vet's office without ending the vacation early.

I cure his Winterfest fever, then take him back to the rental. I need some way to heat the place up... I know! Temperature controls from Seasons!

Now, at least, it'll be nice and toasty inside and we'll just avoid taking him on any long walks. He's an old dog anyway, long walks may be a little much.

By the time everything is done and over with, it's 5 PM Friday, which means the festival of lights is VERY SOON. I freshen up to waste the time until it's, uh, time. I also leave Dusty at home because it is cold-cold-COLD outside.

I also find the mailbox (I'm a little blind) and license my lyrics and submit the book to a literary digest.

When I get to the Festival of Lights, I immediately order some edamame. Which I personally love in real life! Cassidy, being the diva she is, doesn't like it because it's normal quality. Ah well. I buy a Simmi capsule and pop it open, and thus complete the first stage of my ambition.

The next step involves soaking in a hot spring for a long time, eating food with chopsticks, wear a festival costume from a vending machine (I am doing that, why are you not enabled?), and sled three times. In part two, we continue!

Part Two

Sims 4 Playthrough: Journey to Batuu Part 3

 I can't quite get the 'daring rescue', the next story mission, so I go ahead and do other missions.

Look. They're really boring. It's the same thing ad infinitum. Journey to Batuu is not a game pack I recommend, that's all I'll say.

One of them is kind of fun I guess. I have to help Batuu citizens, so... It's nice? I also get a lightsaber hilt for it, which I install the blue crystal into. Now I can do lightsaber challenges, yaaay.

Finally, I purchased a BB-unit of droid.

BBM4. Yes, they're pink.

Before I rank up, I take a lightsaber challenge which gets rid of my current mission. So... I go to Hondo and pick up the mission to beat him at Sabacc. And watch as I lose all. of. my. credits once again.

You look WAY too cheerful for someone with 2,500 credits to lose at this game...

After losing nearly a thousand credits, however, I WIN A ROUND. Yay! My fun need is also full, so I head back to the Resistance to help them out.

When I reach level four, I get a whole BUNCH of rewards. I make a second lightsaber, this time green. Then I go on to my next mission.

I get to ask Chewbacca for help. Please tell me I will get to see Chewbacca. I love Chewbacca.

There is no Chewbacca sim. Just this.

Alas/

By now it's time to fly a rescue mission to rescue the scientist. I get a lot of fun options and make quick order of it. Then it's time to destroy a jamming device on the TIE fighter.

And that's it. That's the story missions. But wait! I still haven't completed my ambition!

Time to do more random bullshit missions for reputation... hopefully I rank to five fairly quickly...

...I take a quick stop to the cantina to dance and fill up my fun need, since that's getting low, before continuing with the missions.

I finally manage to reach max rank! So I go exploring with the X-Wing the three times I need to.

Ambition complete. The torture is over. I am never going to head back to Batuu. University? Worth it. Vampires? Can be fun. Pets? Hell yes! Strangerville? I know a lot of people don't like it, but I enjoyed it.

Joureny to Batuu? It was just sad. It could have been something great. But it failed at that.

Here's what a black kyber crystal looks like. Yup - it's red.

Just another disappointment on top of the disappointment soup that is the Sims 4: Journey to Batuu.

Next, I'll be doing Snowy Escape, using Mt Komorebi as a vacation world. I'll take Dusty with me - and I think I'll make Samanta move, too. The only reason I wanted her was so I could go to University after all.

After Snowy Escape, I will finally, finally, FINALLY do Realm of Magic. It's what I've been waiting for this entire time.

And after Realm of Magic, Cassidy is going to have an ambition to find a life partner, followed by one to have a family, and she'll finally be able to age up from a Young Adult. (:

Can you spot all the Star Wars stuff?

Snowy Escape

Sims 4 Playthrough: Journey to Batuu Part 2

AND SO IT CONTINUES. With suffering.

I go ahead and cancel Hondo's mission before heading off to the Resistance base. There, I get my next mission.

I take another mission to explore the communities around Black Spire. There were three, so I'll just pick another one. If I get this mission a third time, then I can go for the last community and voila. Resistance support, hopefully.

Galma Vicinity easily accepts trade opportunities and is more than happy to support the Resistance. I report back and grab the mission for the third and final community.

I reach the rank of lietenent and then I get the job of asking scoundrels pass-phrases that make me look crazy. Yay. Back to Ogda Cantina I go. Oh well, at least while I'm there I can fill my fun need. Sims 4 really needs a reward trait for it.

....I also inspire Hondo to join the Resistance, because the option is there and I can. It doesn't work, but it's still funny.

I find the informant easily, and she wants me to swipe a blaster from the First Order supply crates. Cool, let's goooo (and see what other free things I can get).

Well, that didn't work out.

Pay attention to the Droid, not to me.

KYLO REN????

After, uh, several attempts of me refusing to give up while I attract attention and my droid distracts, I finally get the blaster right in front of Kylo Ren and then leave the building. Heh.

I also end up with a red kyber crystal, although I don't think I want a red saber so I'll wait on that. After stealing from a few more supply crates, I go ahead and go back to the cantina. Time to meet with the contact...

While waiting for the contact, I go ahead and dance to fill my fun need some.

So many scoundrels, none of them my contact!

While waiting for my contact, I decided to go and shop at the lightsaber shop. I have a kyber crystal. I want a different color. My options are blue or green since I don't want red. I wanted purple like Samuel L Jackson's character :( Alas. Maybe I can combine blue and red to make purple? Maybe?

Google tells me no, but that I can earn things from missions. So... more waiting for the contact, I guess. SIGH.

I head over to Dok-Ondar's den real quick too, curious about what might be for sale there. Maybe cheaper scrap than the droid shop? I want to upgrade R4M4 after all...

No, but there are some plush ewoks and porgs. I can't resist, I buy one of each. I then head over to a supply crate and attempt to override the locks once the Stormtrooper guarding it walks off. Then check for contact...

It looks like I can give it to any of the scoundrels but I feel like this is a terrible idea, so... I continue to wait. I place down my droid and start messing with it. I decide to install an Aural Sensor Translator under the Protocol droid menu, hoping it doesn't lock me out of installing navigation stuff too. What? I want an all-purpose droid!

I search some scrap piles for scrap, and then amble on back to the cantina. I leveled up to handiness level 8, too, which is nice.

And guess what: STILL no contact!! Where is the informant??? Where are they???

I also sell sold the red kyber crystal. I'll wait for the rare ones, thank you very much. I'm gunning for purple, although white and black also have their appeal. I bet a black lightsaber would look REALLY badass, even in the sims.

Google does not show me a black lightsaber, so for the sake of everyone I'm going to have to get a black one so I can share the image with you. Maybe I will find it. Eventually. Maybe.

Sick of waiting for my contact, I pick a random scoundrel and... get the disruption field. Cool, cool. Time to head to the First Order district.

By now, I am an expert at this.

Look at the droid, not at me...

I'm in!

Wait! You're supposed to ignore me in favor of the droid!

Whoops

After that eventful mission, I report back to Vi Moradi. And, what do you know - I get a blue kyber crystal this time! I also grab a new mission.

Looks like there's a First Order defector, which is awesome. I get the information from the holo-table.

I buy some supplies from the table, and sell all but one of the thermal detonators I've acquired along with the kyber crystal to make sure I have a decent amount of Credits.

I'm also looking for Corra Arrel. I hope this isn't a trick...

I chat with my droid a bit before Corra Arrel shows up. She has a cool hairstyle.

The girl in the blue vest right behind me.

She tells me about a big plan. Time to head back to the Resistance, then, and let Vi know what's up. I get another blue kyber crystal that I keep this time. Turns out Corra got arrested, yikes.

On to the next mission!

I have to trick Lt. Agnon into believing I'm First Order. Yikes! Let's go talk to Rey like she suggested. Ah yes, Rey. I have only seen the first movie of the new trilogy - I know, I know, I'm lame. The first movie was good and then I heard bad things about the second and third and spoiled myself on them and they are super disappointing plotwise, though I'm sure the visual effects are incredible.

I need a First Order uniform and a fake ID card. It leads me to Hondo or Dok-Ondar. I'm going to try Hondo - I LIKE the scoundrels.

Oh.

Oh no.

I have to challenge Hondo to Sabacc for it.

I'm going to try Dok-Ondar now... He has it for 100 credits, WAY less than I'd lose to Sabacc. Sorry, Hondo. Gotta go with this guy. Now to find an officer...

I search some scrap piles for scrap (duh) before heading off to the First Order district.

I can seduce, fight, or bribe for the uniform. I am tempted to seduce... my charisma skill is high... If I combine that with an enchanting introduction, that should work well! And then I can break her heart. Sorry, First Order officer, it'd never work anyway. I do plan to get Cassidy married after she becomes a spellcaster and completes that ambition, and she lives on another planet. Do you want to live on another planet?

I flirt with her a whole bunch too, just to be sure, and somehow manage to piss her off. I... uh... okay?

Aaand she's angry again...

I fail at seducing her for the uniform despite the relationship boost. Someone calls me and warns me about being disliked by someone. Okay, look, I have no problems with the First Order, they have problems with me.

Yet somehow... I get the uniform despite angering her. Uh. Okay.

Cassidy, I don't think that's a very good disguise...

I go to a corner without people and then leave the corner to take the picture. Um. Cassidy. Um... Your hair... Maybe you should... cover that...?

Whatever. Time to convince the Lt. I'm first order.

(He's seen me. He's watched me literally hack into things in front of him???? Cassidy has REALLY OBVIOUS HAIR???)

After getting shocked (twice) by the door, R4M4 is easily able to scramble it. There's no option to convince the Lt. about being First Order which - fine by me. Once I grab the plans, I get the heck out of dodge.

I get some scrap metal as a reward, and I'm still not rank 4 with the resistance. Rank 5 is the max! How much do I need to DO?! On to the next mission...

And looks like Batuu is going to be three parts. Ha.

Part Three

Sims 4 Playthrough: Journey to Batuu Part 1

 Step one in Batuu is to plan outfits. Luckily, encoded into the mission is 'plan your Batuu outfit' so that's nice!

I also ask around about the Resistance and First Order, making steady progress on my new ambition.

Stylish!

I get a mission from the Resistance and do some spying on the First Order. When that's all done, I finish the first part of the ambition for a bonus of credits and satisfaction points.

Then, it's off to pick up another mission. Obviously, I've sided with the Resistance!

I introduce myself to three members of the resistance for my aspiration, then head off to the cantina again so I can start on the new mission. While I'm there, I do some dancing to up my fun need.

Dance with me!

Once I fill my fun need, I head over to the First Order with the dataspike I grabbed according to the mission. It takes some exploring (and a visit to Google), but I find the control panel, splice it, and grab the access codes and disrupt a transmission.

I report back. Left on my ambition is to explore the Caves of Batuu... now to find them. I'm guessing they're going to be around the Resistance encampment...

Cassidy gets embarrassed from mistaking a Tooka-cat, but at least she's okay. And that's the next part of the ambition done! For level three, we need to get a droid companion, recruit at least three people to the Resistance, and unlock and loot at least two First Order supply crates. I think it's time to get my next mission from the Resistance!

The mission involves meeting Vi Moradi first and foremost, and... man, but I am not the most fluent in Star Wars so even though I recognize the name I just Do Not know who she is.

She wants X-wing parts and help getting supplies and. I ask around and... who the hell is Dok-Ondar and how do I find them??? Maybe I need to find a Scoundrel??? Why is this so difficult?

Asking another Resistance member gets me the news that, yes, the Scoundrels probably have some for a price. So looks like I need to earn myself some credits and get some scrap and parts, cuz I want to get a droid too for my ambition.

To the cantina!

While I head there, I get bills. I just pay them from my phone. Then I pick Hondo's brain in hopes of getting the X-Wing parts I need.

Even in Batu, I'm famous.

Nothing happens with Hondo, so I look at other Scoundrels. Looks like I need to build relationships with them to buy parts. Why do I need to know so many people.

I play some Sarlacc and lose badly, but then finally go to a group and chat and buy X-wing parts until I get five. Once I do, I'm off to the First Order area to scramble stuff with the tower and control panel (and see if I can steal from some supply crates...).

I also purchase some scrap while I'm there, although I have less than a thousand credits. I need a thousand credits to get a droid, you see. Well - onwards with the mission, let's see if I can't get more as time goes on.

The first try with the tower goes poorly, so I take a break to try overriding some locks. What can I say? I'm nothing if not determined.

Oh no...

Oh no!

I get caught, but thankfully Cassidy's athletic enough to win. Still, I high-tail it from the First Order until the heat dies down, and do some more dancing to boost my fun need.

My fun need gets full but I still have the moodlet, so I go to the encampment and replace the part. Then it's a little bit more waiting before I head back to the First Order and try things again, this time checking around for Stormtroopers before I hack into the tower. Once that's done, I go poke at a supply crate.

He didn't catch me this time. He just saw me, Cassidy got angry, and while I was chatting with someone up he came and started a fight. Okay then. At least Cassidy is happy now...?

I realize I'm missing a dataspike, so I have to head to the resistance base and get one. SIGH. So much back and forth... please. I loot a supply crate, however... and get a dataspike! Looks like Cassidy's day is LOOKING UP :D

This time it's successful, so I head back to the Resistance encampment to go fly the X-Wing on the distraction mission.

The mission is a success, but my Rocket Science skill level is not high enough for fancy maneuvers so I end up damaging the X-Wing. Gosh darn it.

I end up with two lightsaber hilts and sell one for credits. I'm at 958 - one more mission and I should finally be able to get a droid. Vi, hit me. What's next for the Resistance?

I get a few options and choose one involving the X-Wing. I repair it and then head out to explore some communities.

I offer protection on behalf of the Resistance, and it goes very well, as you can read! I also get level 4 in the Rocket Science skill.

Gotta love how Sims 4 gets literal space ships before cars.

I achieve Rank 2 in the Resistance and have enough credits to buy a droid. Let's do that and then recruit folks for the cause!

Now then... Do I want a BB (round ball!) unit, or an R (like R2D2!) unit? Decisions, decisions... I go with the R unit.

Meet R4M4 (M for Moribus)!

I go ahead and chat with a citizen nearby - in the First Order district, playing dangerous! - and inspire them to join the Resistance. I attempt to recruit someone else, but even after becoming 'good friends' I don't get the option, so... I guess it's time to head back to the cantina? I want to see about doing a mission for the scoundrels...

The first mission is to beat Honda at Sarlacc. Oh... oh no... I'm bad at that game!

I lose all of my Galactic Credits playing the game, and of course, I can't win at all. Sigh. I take a break to try and do some recruitment for the Resistance.

It takes a while, but the option finally pops up and I can 'Inspire' another person. The annoying thing is that the 'Batuu' section of chat is gone, so I have to wait for it to appear. And if I select something else, it doesn't appear again. HOWEVER, the guy walks off before that action comes up in the queue. Why this.

I also gain a 'People Person' lifestyle, which... okay, I guess?

FINALLY, the option pops up with someone and SUCCESSFULLY goes through, so now I just... need that to happen again.

-gross sobbing-

I search some scrap piles and find someone I can inspire, but ONCE AGAIN, he leaves before I can. Why is this my life. AT LAST, I get someone and it is DONE. Please do not make me recruit more people, I beg of you.

I have to reach rank 5, infiltrate the First Order cargo building and slice the holotable, and explore five times in the X-Wing.

So much for doing this all in one post. Part two will happen eventually. For now, I'm going to cry about my frustrations with recruiting people to the Resistance. Why is Sims so glitchy and pedantic...!

The face of a man who has no regrets in taking all of a person's money.

Part Two

Sims 4 Playthrough: University Part Three

 Night on the town finishes successfully, and Cassidy's doing her last four classes for this term.

It's the weekend, so I'm thinking it's time to pay the Mother Plant a visit and expand her lifespan some. You know, to keep her functionally immortal until I'm ready to have her start aging. She's also at charisma level 9 and VERY CLOSE to leveling up, so looks like that's a goal too!

For the university thing, we need to tutor five students. After I visit Mother, I'm going to get started on that.

Hi Mom!

Now that I'm back at Britechester's Wyvern Hall, let's see about tutoring folks.

A love interest greets me upon my arrival, so I chat and flirt with him a bit before I find the university building where I can tutor and... start tutoring. I have a lot of high skills to choose from, so that's fun. It also makes me some money! Sadly, it does not increase the skill I tutored Sims in.

After one tutoring session, I do homework for all of my classes, and then buy the Mentor and Creative Visionary traits with my satisfaction points. The homework maxes out my writing skill, which: nice! Then it's back to tutor some more!

By now, my fun need is low, so I go ahead and play some video games to up it. After a round of Blicbloc I'm all filled up, so it's time for MOAR TUTORING.

I have a wish to meet someone new, so when I'm done with tutoring I find someone I haven't talked to before and befriend them and chat with them. I also 'share ideas' since that's another wish.

Such tutor. Much wow.

Fall also starts. I do some studying for my upcoming classes.

Brittany ends up dying, which of course upsets Cassidy. She was one of the people I fought the Mother Plant with, my first friend... It seems everyone from Strangerville that Cassidy knew is going to die soon if they haven't already, which is really sad. I know the guy who was an elder died already.

Cassidy's celebrity trait means she's REALLY sad, so I'll have to do some things to help her cheer up.

Cassidy has an emotional meltdown but then is able to recover and become 'emotionally mindful'. I am officially confused.

After another tutoring session (so only two left to complete this level of the aspiration!) I go ahead and play some more BlicBloc to up my fun need. By then, it's time for my first class of this term.

After the classes, I do their homework, and tutor for the last time to complete this level of the aspiration. After that, it's time for more BlicBloc for my fun need. I wish there was a trait to stop that from decaying, too :P

After BlicBloc I contribute knowledge on a research machine. I have time, so that means I'm going to study some.

All I have left to complete this aspiration is to get a degree and then get a job using the said degree. Freelance writing here I come.

After my morning class, I do homework before heading to the afternoon class. Homework again. BlicBloc again. Studying. Etc, etc, wash, rinse, repeat. Cassidy also maxes out her charisma skill while practicing the presentation.

After final exams, I'm free. We've got the University degree, we've got the aspiration to the final level - all that's left to do is get a job using the degree. So I become a freelance writer.

Also: LEAVES!

After graduation, I sign up as a freelance writer.

FREEDOM!

Now, I think, it's time to get to Batu. I choose 'Hope Vs Order' for my new aspiration. Next post will be the Journey to Batuu playthrough!

Journey to Batuu

Sims 4 Playthrough: University Part Two

This part starts with watching TV and socializing. Cassidy had autonomously done a flirty introduction, so now I have to focus on keeping two people thoroughly green and not, uh, flirting with them. Yaaay. .-.

Cassidy, plz, you're not ready for dating yet. Become a spellcaster, then we'll get you a partner and a family.

So involved she forgets to actually watch the TV. Hey! You still have your fun need, you!

Once her fun need is full, I head off to the library so I can write the term paper for one of my classes.

I write and edit it until it's 'Outstanding', and then submit it. EXCELLENT.

I also get started on the presentation board to work on said presentation for another class. I 'refine and organize' it until class starts.

Between classes, I once more work on homework.

When classes are over, I watch some TV until my fun need is full then work on my presentation, since two of my classes end after tomorrow and one of them needs the presentation.

When it's as good as it's gonna get, I go back to working on homework.

When I'm done with THAT, I ask for feedback on my presentation from the person I autonomously introduced myself to 'flirtily'. And then, of course, I practice.

When that's all done, my fun need's low again so I go ahead and watch some TV until my 8 AM class.

In between classes, I present the final presentation board. Then it's on to my next class. Since it's the end of term, I don't have any more homework, so... now can I just chill!

Of course, by 'chilling' I mean 'level up my research and debate skill'. I have to get it to level three for the first aspiration of my University ambition, after all.

The term ends and I get A+ in every class! I sign up right away for the next term and reach level 3 research and debate.

I also cheat to make free build happen because holy moly these dorms suck and I want better ones.

TheSimSupply - Wyvern Hall Remodel. I'm using it on Drake Hall.

Much better! Once fixed, I fill my fun need by watching comedy. And when my fun need is full, I get a head start on my presentation. Dude, I have SO MUCH TIME. xD

I get to level nine charisma while doing the presentation. I practice presenting it once, then do my term paper.

After my term paper has been edited to hell, I do my homework. Cassidy reaches level four research and debate skill (nice) and ends up playing some Juice Pong to up her fun need when she has just one class left to do homework on.

Nevertheless, by the time Sunday comes, I'm done with homework AND the term paper. Which is perfect, because since I got nominated for a Starlight Accolade from a song I licensed I'll need to be there!

I go ahead and level my research and debate skill to five while I'm waiting for the Starlight Accolades to happen.

New Skill Day starts, too. Which... leveling achieves. Nice! I also reach level six before I'm done levelling.

At about 2 PM, I head over to Studio PBP. Might as well be early for the accolades and all.

I sing a song in the microphone, cuz why not? There's not all that much to do at PBP...

Oh hey, there's a TV, let's watch that. And, finally - the accolades begin! I psych myself up and then change into formal wear.

Discover University didn't technically have any formal wear...

I WIN AN ACCOLADE FOR A BOOK. but, wait, I thought I was nominated for a song...? Whatever, I'll take it.

The accolades end, and I head home. I do a little bit of studying for my classes.

When 8 AM hits, I go ahead and turn in my presentation. DONE. Now all I have to worry about is studying for the other two classes for their final exams.

My fun need is pretty low, so I come back and play some video games until my class starts.

There's no time to study or do homework in between classes, but I get started on homework right after.

At five, I attend a guest lecture since I have to do three for this stage of the ambition. After the lecture, it's back to homework.

Someone put an easel in the dorms, so I go ahead and paint on it to fulfill a whim.

I didn't put that there. The person who made the dorm remodel didn't put that there. A random sim put it there.

IN THE PERFECT SPOT.

How, the world may never know.

After, I play some Ping-Pong.

I lose 3 to 2, so not bad. Absolutely could be better, but whatever, Cassidy had fun.

7 AM comes and I am off to my 8 AM class. Ha, so early.

After class, there's a water balloon bucket outside, so I fill it with water balloons and have a fight.

Clearly Cassidy is having fun.

After the fight, it is time for my second class. When that class ends... I head into a guest lecture.

After the guest lecture, it's homework time.

During my homework, I head over to the local bar to check out some art society shenanigans... and possibly join.

I introduce myself to a member, hoping to figure out how to get in the society. It's easy enough, and after asking the member to join - I've joined! Woo. Now to finish my homework.

Once the event is over, I head home. I gotta try and level up in the organization before I graduate, after all.

I complete a realism painting. All that's left is taking five photos on this task list, so...

Voila.

I work on writing a song then, hoping to license it for some sweet sweet cash.

Some of the nonsense words remind me of "zippity-doo-dah, zippity-dee-ay, my oh my what a wonderful day"... you know, that song, so I call it "Zippity Doo Dah".

My two classes happen, then I work on homework.

I license a couple of songs, clean up around the dorms, and read a random book ('read something' interaction).

By the time 8 AM rolls around, Cassidy is ready to head to class plus some.

And now for the long break between classes. Wheee.

I decide to compose a short comedy routine on the computer. Class happens while I'm working on it, so I just finish after class.

Once that's all done, I attend a guest lecture and thus attend the three I need to for this stage of my ambition. Sweet.

I then study for the two classes I have tomorrow since I'll be taking the final.

I start performing art society tasks as well. I head to a museum to view works of art first. Plumbob Pictures in Del Sol Valley seems like the perfect spot.

I view the three paintings I need to, then head home to paint a surrealism painting.

Aliens :o

After that, I drink a Celebuserum and play some BlicBloc.

It's been a year since I last played, but I'm back finally and with all current DLC! Woo! So, let's see what Cassie's been up to...

Looks like I need to pass a class with an "A" grade, and it's "Night on the Town" day. It's 10 AM and I have a class at 1:30. I have a second class at 3:00 and it looks like I'm taking the exams for them. Homework's all done, too, which is good.

While I'm in a 'focused' mood and with full needs, I decide to study for my first class I'll be taking the exam for. I've probably already studied, but it's been a yeat so, like, y'know. I also study some for the other class.

And then it's time to go to my first class. My mood changes to uncomfortable because of my last-minute studying and exam nerves, but hopefully, Cassidy will still do well. She should! I want that A so I can proceed with the ambition! I want to finish college so I can do other things!

After both exams, I think it's time to head out and take advantage of 'night on the town' day. I mean, who wouldn't want to party after doing exams, right? I head over to Darby's Den, the Britechester hangout area.

Of course, a fan comes along. Just gonna... ignore them...

I go ahead and practice a comedy routine and then drink a 'fun' celebuserum. And an energy one since I don't lose energy. I also order some food to fulfill the holiday necessities.

Wait... what is going on?

The term ends with me getting all A's. Yes! I sign up for the next term, which it looks like is the final one for the degree.

And on to writing the next part of this! :P

Part Three

Self-love and Being Fat

I have been fat all of my life.

I have internalized it, hated it, fought with it the entire time. Every year, for years, my New Year's Resolution was to lose weight.

I tried diets from Weight Watchers when I was ten years old to different ones when I was older: cutting out meat, depriving myself of bread and sweets only to pig out in them a month or two later when I couldn't stand it anymore. I've gone to nutritionists and health classes over and over again. I've tried fruits and vegetables that I didn't like, tried healthy foods over and over again. I learned to cook in hopes of cooking healthy food.

I look back at my child self and I see someone round and big and fat surrounded by skinny-legged peers, by people who are points and angles when I am a mammoth. I see myself as someone tall, towering over the rest and never quite fitting in.

(It all comes back to that one issue, doesn't it? I know who I am and I refused to bend so I cried until I started biting myself because that was the only way to make it quiet. I have always walked to the beat of my own drum and it is so, so hard to see it for the blessing it is and to appreciate my sense of self as always a little off.)

My mom says I was never that much overweight. Ten pounds, maybe twenty. Round, fluffy, soft. I say it was fifty, one hundred, one-fifty, because I remember being fifty pounds away from my goal weight in Weight Watchers. Except, no - memory has twisted it. I was fifteen pounds away from my goal weight when we stopped; I only ever had fifty to lose. I try to look at myself like a stranger, take away my biases.

If it was someone who is not me, I would not be this cruel to myself. I would see that I was adorable, that I was fluffy moreso than fat, that chubby isn't that bad as long as I'm healthy.

I was a chubby kid. I didn't have the double chin that I carry now, or a butt that I can feel the wrinkles on. I used to have no stretch marks, and then small ones. I started gaining some weight when I was 12, but it wasn't until high school that I really started ballooning. Looking at myself, as a child - I ate vegetables, I've always enjoyed them, and I was far more active than I am now even as a voracious reader and someone who chose the computer above almost everything else.

Now I stagnate. I try brief attempts - a week, two, a month - at weight loss with diet and excersize and always fall back into old habits. Ice cream, chocolate; the absolute food explosion that comes at the end of the year starting in October and not ending until early January, spiking up around Valentine's Day and Easter once more.

But I was so different from my peers. Everyone was skinnier than me; I was the one fat kid in the ocean of 'average'. Even the rounder, softer people I knew didn't make me feel less fat, and there were times when I couldn't stand looking at myself in group pictures, even ones for my favorite birthdays.

I still can't stand looking at myself in group pictures. But sometimes I get dress up and I practice poses and I take selfies. Here, there - I can see the double chin, the wideness, the roundness, but I can also see my enchanting eyes and my gorgeous hair and the so-much-of-me that is beautiful.

Beautiful despite being fat. Beautiful, unattached to any other word, but conditioned to believe that the beauty is hiding away if I could just lose the weight.

And that fear, that horrible fear as if I am standing in a spotlight and the whole world is staring at me: even when I am ten, fifteen, twenty pounds overweight, I will still be considered fat. I will still be too-round and too-big. I will be a mammoth amongst people who are normal, average, whatever else. That even being healthy - because being slightly overweight is not bad - I will still stand out.

Because chances are I will always be a little bit chubby. Chances are I will always be soft and round and carry fat. It's the story of my family - overweight, fat, and even the skinnier ones aren't pencil-thin and pointed elbows. That's okay. Sturdiness is good, too, and when it's sturdiness built out of muscle and health then that's especially good.

But I had it pounded into me, as year after year I set goals to lose weight. As kids said "your new year's resolution isn't going so well, huh?" and "guess you'll just be fat forever" and "you're too fat to do this". As I watched other kids being able to be lifted by friends, screaming and squealing; as I took dance classes and ended up, in high school, not being able to do the same jumps as others; as I panicked at a group trust fall that I wouldn't be able to be caught despite the fact there were ten people gathered around to catch me, and adults that said, yes, it is fine; as being out of shape and being fat became one and the same so that as long as I perceive myself as fat I will never be capable.

In my worst moments, I have wished for an eating disorder. Anorexia, bulimia - anything. I have attempted and failed to make myself throw up food because it's all just calories. I have gone full days without eating and lamented my lack of willpower when I finally gave in.

Being fat has become as much a part of me as being a writer, in some ways. Even when I lose weight I will still see myself as fat, still see myself with a double-chin, a triple-chin, a turkey gobbler; still see my butt as too big, something that is too obvious and ill-placed, as bigger than it is in reality; still see my thighs as having too much fat.

So in the end, love has to come when I am fat. I have to love myself for who I am with a round belly and too many places that jiggle and that cursed double-chin. I have to find ways to say "I am beautiful" and then say "I am beautiful and fat, and I am beautiful RIGHT NOW. Not in spite of or because of or for being fat, but as two things that co-exist." I have to recognize my inner beauty AND my outer beauty and refuse to allow myself to hate myself for being fat.

Because if I hate myself, I punish myself. And if I punish myself, I stay fat.

And more than that - I have to learn to lose weight for health. Because if I lose weight to be pretty or to fit in then I will lose weight until I am underweight and unhealthy and have a very different but no less dangerous problem. I have to learn when my body is content, when my body is okay, when my organs aren't choked by fat deposits even if I still have a little bit extra.

I have to love myself. And I have to love myself as I am, as I have been, and as I will be.

Because as every fat person knows: the shame people place upon you does not help. It breaks you. It hurts you. It causes anorexia and bulimia where you don't actually lose weight because your body is made a certain way, and if you don't eat healthily and take care of yourself you cannot be healthy, you cannot lose weight.

So.

Loving myself.

I will find it, someday. And whether I am fat or thin, I will love myself through it.